Five half-marathons, four 5k races, three sprint triathlons, two 10k races, and one full marathon. All in one year, and all in memory of someone who never knew she was strong.
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Mike told me last night that he thinks I should forfeit this race and find another to sign up for in its place, a little further along in the year, and when I am better prepared and trained. He expressed worry that having a bad time would be discouraging to me (it definitely wouldn't make me happy) and that he thought it seemed wrong to push for it when I am still teetering on the edge of an injury, especially right before our wedding and the mini-honeymoon where we hope to hike the Grand Canyon for a couple days.
I am not sure what to do. I have already paid for the race, so I feel like I need to do it, but yes, having another 3 hour time would probably make me feel bad, like everything I have worked for since my last half (disaster) and since I decided to embark on this entire journey was in vain. I am not as worried about the injury as I am about the fact that my breathing still sounds like the beginning of a Mucinex commercial, the part where the little green guys are still making their home in the guy's chest. I am super frustrated right now, mostly because it seems as if I've hit nearly every possible obstacle in the past five months. But, what has come out of it is that I really don't feel defeated by these things. I just feel challenged. And this whole ordeal is supposed to be challenging to start with, so who am I to say? I need suggestions. And help.
I know I will meet my goal either way, but what should I do? Reschedule another race and let this one go? Or get out there with little expectation and try not to get hurt? ARRRRGGH! I would love some insight!
In addition, I would like to thank my first few donors for my Girls on the Run fundraising efforts, and I would also like to thank Jamie from Fitness Insights, Christi from Pedestrian Runner, and my good friend Kristina (an awesome IronMan) from Ditch the Tiara. Your help and suggestions for all of my issues have been helping immensely. I'll get there!
I have linked all of their blogs, so check them out. Totally inspiring, and inspiration is what I'm after. Now, off to massage my own backside with a tennis ball, then hit the gym.